Yes I know

Yes I know I'm a slacker but I've been so busy with school and trying to keep up on the house..... (which isn't going so well) And now the boys have tackle football. Life is insane. I have tons of fun pics but no time to load'em at the moment. Hopefully the next 4 months, I'll be able to do a recap for you all.

I need to vent

I need to vent and because I have no one to talk to at this particular point in time and I'll go mad if I don't get this off my chest. Plus I type faster than I write. I'm venting to my blog. And I'm sorry if my "gift" has ever upset any of you.

I have this "gift". I can , in seconds, upset someone like no other! I can't tell ya how I do it because I don't even know!!! Even my husband who knows me better than anyone get's all worked up. I can't fix it! I don't know how I broke it in the 1st place! I ask, and no one will say. OR the thing they tell me makes me think, "What?!? How did you get, "I think you're fat" Out of "Hey, this really cute shirt doesn't fit me and I'd thought you'd like it."
NOTE: I don't ever put secret messages in my words, or hints or clues! I try to tell it like I see it or feel it. That's it. If I say the shirt doesn't fit me and I thought you might like it, it means. Hey, this shirt is so cute and would look so good on you. (Who cares about what size it is!!!!!!!)

And guess what! Even though no one will tell me exactly what I did, punishment comes non the less. Sad tears for me because I hate making people sad, slilence from them (those that I upset). And what stinks about it is this: I am not a spiteful, hurtful, angry, witchy, get back at you, I'm offended, you did this to me, you forgot this, I dont' like you, or you didn't do this so I"m going to freak out kind of person!!!!! I just try to love people and hope to be loved. I'm not perfect, I make mistakes. But can't there just be one person in my life who can just not worry about whatever it is I super screw up?! Or the very least, talk to me about it?? They all act like they have never done or said anything that has hurt me!
But guess what! NEWS FLASH! Most likely you have said or done something to me that was hurtful. Some very hurtful.
I just chose not to worry about it. To try and understand that you might have been having a bad day, or that there was some reasonable explanation for it. Maybe I deserved it? LOL. What a joke. So much for treat others as you'd have others treat you. It's impossible for me to make everyone happy all of the time. And it feels fantastic when my "gift" effects those that are most important to me. Particularly my husband. He's the one person I hate upsetting and I hate making him unhappy!!! I don't want to be one of those wives who fall under all the jokes of being a nag, or dramatic, or whiny or whatever. I want him to be happy. The one person that is the most important to me. I want to be his person. I want to be the one person that no matter what is going on, he can see me or look at me and smile. The person he wants to hang out with when he's having a bad day. (He's that for me) Can I do that for him?! Nope. It's heart breaking. No matter how hard I try, this thing that I do gets in the way every time, no matter how much I love or care about the other person. It's no fun when you think of a person as your best friend but you're not claimed as theirs. They're your 1st choice but you're not theirs.

Talk to me about it! N0? Oh, ok. Continue giving me the silent treatment. I'm not even here. No worries that I'm totally upset and sad and worried that I upset you. No worries that I want to fix whatever it was that I did and say sorry. Hey no problem.
I'll just wait.
Why? Because I have another gift. I CARE.
I care for real, despite how I am treated or what skewed view others have of the reality of who I am. I can't help but care. I don't know how to not care. I can't lie to save my life and I have no desire to hurt anyone. Even those who really could care less about me and who have purposefully hurt me because they just don't like me. ( I do care for them from very far away though!)

Christams Fun and the joy that comes from offically not caring about what you get but what you gave.

So while I spent 2 hours hunting down this amazing large steam pot (thank you prego target lady for helping me find it) Bran wrapped up by himself over 60 tamales.

Our Christmas Eve dinner. Heaven on a plate.

Christmas Eve pj's and new couch blankets. I was tired of them dragging their bedding off their beds to watch tv when they were cold.

The boys with there new beanies from Auntie Ambs.

Sweet Tessa Lou and her new soft buddy. I love her sparkly Santa hat! It matches the one I have.

Me trying on my new homemade scarf from Ambs and my new wanna be Dolche and Gabana shades.

My aunt Keri Sue brought this out and a flood of memories came. I played with this amazing Amish toy when I was there age!!! How crazy is that! They loved the marble toy.

The kids with Great Grandma and Grandpa Allen.
Funny story about Brock. The other night he came running into our room saying that there was a monster outside. We tryed to convince him otherwise but he was convinced. Then he said
that,"daddy a monster".
Me: "No, daddy's not a monster."
Brock: "Yes huh! He has...... he has..... he has big nose!"
LOLOLOLOL!!!! Hilarious!

Another funny story
Brock sitting and drawling a picture. Branden comes in the kitchen and we suggest that he draws a picture of Daddy.
So he makes a oval and says "his head"
Then makes 2 dots for eyes and a smiling happy face style mouth.
We tell him, "don't for get his nose."
He draws a big circle clown style nose.
The we say, "don't forget his ears" and he makes nice ears.
Then we ask, "where is his body?"
He starts to draw a stick figure torso. He stops, looks and the pic and exclaims
"Haha! Daddy looks like balloon!"
What's so funny is he totally did.

and more

The pic of Tessa I accidentally deleted on the previous post (She loves love loves her daddy) and our white elephant gift pics.
So for this gift we took pics of us pretending to lick them, we bit some in half, made it look like Brock has them, and the dog and no worries! I cleaned the toilet really well before that pic. It was fully disinfected and sanitized. We put the pics in the box so when they opened the box of luscious See's candy, they saw pics first. LOLOLOL!!!! Sooo funny And 2 of the chocolates were rubber too! Gotta love gag gifts.

Maybe?Ok, I need to redo for bows, but I think I'll wait a bit. Here are some pics for your viewing pleasure. Loves.

Brock being set up to make it look like he was sneeking the chocolate.

The most amazing thing. A basket homemade goodies, little gifts for the kids and a surprise envelope that doubled our christmas budget. Hawes ward, there are no words. I cried!!!!! Thank you so much. We love you all.

Branson hating his hair cut. He said it was fine, then cried for and hour. We ended up buzzing it at 9:30pm. He felt better and went right to sleep.

James love'n his new buzz.

Cute Brock. Maybe I should have trimmed his Hawk like eyebrows too?

Sweet Tessa all trimmed up. I'm not good at putting the pics in order. Sorry.

Who says you can't buzz a girl? She needed it. Her hair was crazy.

Tessa loving pizza. She kept grabbing the box off the table.

Me, James and Branson after their performance at school. They did great.

Redo

I will be renovating my blog soon. I'll be focusing it to selling hair bow, clips and such. Hopefully someday I'll get to do bracelets too. I'll be creating a new blog for fun family stuff.

New pics

I've added 3 new updates.

Brockers

Brock hiding from the thunder and lightning. Mind you, it's Saturday morning so ya can't see the lightning. The night before we were outside watching the storm and he was having non of it.

Is the lightning gone yet??

Time out really wipes me out!

Totally asleep.

James' update

JP's 9th birthday.

All the boys.

Wish made. Aunt Denise made him a super yum cheesecake.

Make a wish!

Update of Tessa

Hanging out while Daddy's game'n.

Playing in the rain. She really wanted to eat the rocks.

Playing in her bed.

Style'n her Mohawk.

Trying to feed herself.

Our happenings..... I didn't forget James, He's soon to come.

Branson broke his wrist while playing on the monkey bars at the park on night. Thankfully he only had to wear the cast for 4 weeks.

Brock all dressed up and no where to go.

Branden is now 31! And there you see my Reeses chocolate peanut butter cake. It's awesome!

Branson turned 7. He's fun and silly and bashful, and helpful. Last night while tucking the boys in we were talking about their new friends they're making in class. They started listing the kids in our ward and Branson said, "And Morgan is in my class." James couldn't remember who she was so I told him that she is the red headed Incardone girl then stated that she was such a cute girl. Then I heard Branson say, "Ya she is".

Brock sneeking ice cream in the early morning hours before we got up.
He loves ice cream!

Tessa trying baby food for the 1st time. She loves it "this much"!

Sell it, buy it with no fee's!

http://www.sellitforfree.blogspot.com/
What a great idea!!!

Sweet Tessa

Check it out girls!

Check out this blog below and enter to win a super cute bag. Or don't even risk the chance and order the one you love. She has some really adorable stuff.

http://www.joncasfamily.blogspot.com

Stollen from my cousin Jenny and so me.

Oh!!!!

I also forgot to say that one of my highlights of my Utah trip was going to Vegas to hang out for a night with my most best friend Michelle. Shell was smart and took pics. I however was not so on top of it, but you can see how cute little Dax was with Tessa on her blog.
He just gave her tons and tons of kisses.
I sure love you Shell and you too Eddie. Thanks so much for dinner & for letting me hang out so last minute. I had so much relaxing fun and it always feels like my second home when I'm with you.
P.S. I wanna see what you got with that Old Navy card! Giving the gift of shopping always makes me happy! Let me know if you had any issues with it.

Pics, Pics and More Pics!

Sweet Tessa and her new trick.

An "action" pic taken by Kaycee. Having fun at the Virgin River in St.George, Ut.
The weather was gorgeous!!!

A family pic at the waterfall. Note: it was very very slippery. But the kids had no problem climbing all over it.

Ashley, Brock and Kaylee building sand castles.

My boys.

Brock very excited to play.

Brock with Kaycee's makeup on. Another mess to clean up but note the mascara he managed to place on his eyelashes. What a goofy kid!

Look closely at Tessa's right eye. She totally has a brown spot at the top of it. I love it. I will be having her eyes looked at just in case but otherwise I hope it stays. It's very original and fun.

Me and Tessa in her red paper hat made by Kaylee.

All the family at Brooke's baptism. She is now an Allen girl as of July 3rd. She married my brother Michael at Laguna Beach in Cali.

The boys rock climbing at the Washington Rec center.

They never got higher than the dotted line but they sure had fun. The rec center was so fun. Kaycee and I did Zumba every week. I LOVE ZUMBA!!! If any of you know of a great place to do zumba in Gilbert or Queen Creek, please let me know!!! (note: the addiction factor for zumba is defiantly based on your instructor. April at the Washington center was awesome! A guest instructor that taught a new song had no rhythm. I admired her courage to do it, but man alive!!! The instructor makes a huge diffrence.)

My new niece Tristan and Brock.

Brock happily swimming at the Rec center. He loved this kids area and was always upset when it was time to leave.

The pool is an indoor and is surrounded by roller walls that are opened on warm days.
There is a huge bucket at the top of the play set that fills with water then dumps out everywhere. Also, a small lazy river, a big tub water slide, an outside splash pad, and a lap pool.

Brock eating a carrot out of Grandpa's garden. We had a lot of fun eating home grown corn, onions, spinach, beets, squash, and even tried chard. Good stuff.

Branson's kindergarten graduation. 1st grade here he comes.

James room.

Branson and Brocks room.

Although these were the rooms painted in the rental that we just moved out of. :( So sad to work so hard then have to leave so soon. HOWEVER, we so do not miss the scorpions!!!!