Water works

Ok just a note about being prego with a girl........ HELLO SUPER EMOTIONAL, UNVALID WORRIES AND HIGH ANXIETY!!!.

Those of you who know me best know I am emotional by nature but holy cow this is a whole diffrent level for me. I seriously, no joke, cry everyday, and when I 'm not crying, I totally have the biggest lump in my throat. The littlest thing can send me into a water works show. And it doesn't help that not only am I having the "I wanna ball in my bed for a few hours" sort of feelings; triggered by something that is no big deal; I am also now upset because I'm upset which as you can imagine, does not help the situation what so ever! It's so intense and real in my head, like there's a little monster in my brain who is taking all my insecurities and worries and twising anything that I hear into something really horrible. Like for instance, A lady in my ward just found out that I was pregnant yesterday and she said, "I had no idea you were pregnant." Instead of my usual attitude of: " I must not be showing as much as I feel" I think with a large lump in my throat..." WHAT?! How could you not? I'm totally showing. I must just look totally fat!!!!!" The flood gates of past insecurites and worries, that with self discovery and life experience rarely are an issue anymore, all come flooding back at once.

I also experience intense jelousy and feel very defensive. I met a girl a few weeks ago who works at Nordstroms. My great friend Jen Wagner took me there to meet up with this girl, to pick up some fun parfume samples. So this girl starts saying how she just got off work and needed to go home to get some baking done and that she LOVES football and is having a party. This girl is gorgeous in everyway that I can see and instantly I'm feeling defensive and insecure while thinking, "So this is what it feels like to meet your husbands dream girl in real life!!!" Not only did I suddenly feel very "lacking in every way" I also felt so STUPID for even thinking something like that! DUMB I KNOW!!!

Also, I have really weird and frustrating dreams that feed of my emotions. I wake up so tired in the mornings.

The Good news: I did mention my extreme and really frustrating "ISSUES" ; P to my doctor. (Thank goodness for good docs and nurse practitioners by the way. I have great ones!!!! )

She told me to really pay attention to my feelings and if my anxiety increases I need to let her or Doc Huish know and I can start a safe treatment to help me feel like my normal happy self. She also said that I need to keep in mind that these extreme hormone changes could also increase my chance for Postpardom depression! YIKES!

Did any of you girls go through anything like this with any of your pregnancies?

HEY!!!!! GUESS WHAT????

The confirming ultrasound photos of our 1st Turley Girl.

They are more clear on the big screen in my doctors office. Which is awesome by the way! In the ultrasound room they have a big screen on the wall so you can see much more clearly what is on the techs computer screen. The tech would zoom in on anything she was explaining to us. At one point she was checking out the heart and we could see the 4 chambers just pumping away. Every Baby Doctor should have it! It's fantastic!

So we have a name and it's rare for us to choose a name before the birth. We usually have options and then go with what we feel fits best, but we love this name so much and just have to use it! Of course, unless we're strongly inspired otherwise when she is born.

~TESSA LOUISE~

It was going to be Tessa Nichole but I told Bran, " Our 1st boy is named after his grandpas, our 1st girl should be named after her grandmas." He agreed to that. Of course, if there is actually hair on her head when she gets here, and it happens to be red in color.... (and we all know the deal about redheads...) we might be inclined to switch back to Nichole as a middle name to get the too perfect inicials "TNT" Nickname:Dynamite.

NOTE: I am totally in shock still! All I can say is...

WOW! REALLY????

Birthdays, Baptisms, Flagstaff and more

Cardinals Camp 2008

Flagstaff, Az

WhooHoo FOOTBALL!!!!

(says Branden and the boys)

WhooHooo cool breezes

(says me)

Top pic: Branson and Morey

James and Branson coming down from playing games.

All the kids left to right: James holding Izzy, Branson, Alyssa, Taty holding Brock and Autumn.

Brock driving the truck.

Brock checking out NAU's mascot/gate keeper to the dome.

My nephew Jake with all the kids. He loves'em and they love him as you can see.

All the boys from left to right: James, Branson, Brock, Branden, Jaker and Craig.

James catching the ball.

Branson with Kirt Warner. He also got pics with Linart, Fitzgerald, Coach Wiz, and Morey. They were all so great to Branson especially Morey. Branson was really upset and crying because he felt to shy to ask for signatures on his shirt. Morey saw him and came over to chat with Branson and sign his shirt for him.

Branson pushing through the lineman to catch the ball.

Brock in his "Baby leash" hanging out with Daddy.

All the girls from left to right: Taty, Alyssa, Izzy, Me, Mariesa and Autumn.

Me and Kaycee. She came to visit me. She loves me so much she rode the bus from Vegas to Flagstaff to be able to come be with us for a week. We LOVED having Kaycee!!!!

James and Branson on the 1st day of school. Well, technically it was the 4th day of school but they had missed the 1st 3 due to Cardinals Camp.

JP's 1st pinewood derby car. He chose the design, Branden carved and I painted.

Fames or Waves???? You decide.

The boys at Pinewood Derby. James on the far left.

The flipflops I made for my sis in law Jennifer. Swavarski crystal in 5 &4mm, AB's- 3 mm and a huge 14mm in the center.

A fun pair I made for myself. Pink, AB green and clear 4mm.

Dark grey old navy flipflops with all clear-5-3mm. YES I lOVE BLINGY FLIPFLOPS!!!!

Brocker had fallen asleep with Daddy. I thought his little hand holding up his head was so cute.

Us with James on his big day.

James with Grandma and Grandpa.

James and Branden

Boys in white.

Me and James.

The whole family.... Both sides. Left to Right: Back row: Branden, Devin, Craig, Izzy, Kaycee, Brock, Grandpa, Grandma, Shauna, Clay, Pat, Denise, Paul.

Front Row: Amber, Taty, Alyssa, Autumn, James, Branson, Riley, Kaylee, Ashley, Joe, Katlynn, and Me.

I have no idea why I didn't go stand over by Bran. I was in such a hurry to help everyone get out of there that I gave Bishop Curtis the camera and I bolted into the pic. It was sooooo HOT out in the foyer.

Happy 8th Birthday James!!!!

JP making a birthday wish.

An adorable random pic of Brock chill'n in our bed.
Branson's 6th Birthday!!!!!

The boys that came over to celebrate were Zach and Drake from his primary class.

Here is Drake attempting to soak Branson with his monstor balloon.

They had a ton of fun with water balloons. And now that I'm commenting, I see that my efforts to put the pics in order didn't work out, so I'm sharing the events backwards. Think of it as "rewinding time". :P

Top pic: The boys with their "MONSTER" balloons.

Bottom pic: Water Balloon Figth.

Drake and Branson loading up with more balloons.

The Boys threating me.

Branson pluggging his ears while popping his balloon for our "Gestures" game.

All the boys getting ready to play"Pin the Pennant on the poster"

Hoping for a forcast of a nice September breeze.

Introducing Turley Boy #4 OR.... Turley Girl #1!

( I sure like the sound of that!)

I will have a confirmation of that very issue on September 9th. Please please please send us your boy name ideas! If this is a boy, I am going to need a search party to find a name that Branden and I can agree on and love. I'm really hoping for a girl. Name choosing would be a BREEZE and it's hot here, I would really appreciate a nice breeze.

It's offical offical

Ok so I've been to the doctor, everything is A-ok, and I'm far enough along to be past the nervous stage, we're announcing..... OFFICALLY.
I have no due date however because the 1st day of my last cycle is a guess, so he's putting me at the end of January, but after a complete check up, he thinks I"m farther than that! I'm hoping far enough to see what it'll be!!!! Next week I'll have an offical due date.
I'm really hoping for a girl for the sake of my marriage. You see, Branden and I cannot fully agree and any boys name we love together. I love Matthew Allen, he doesn't and there other names I like, but I want to love the name!!!! A girl would make the naming process so much easier!!!!! Plus, a girl would be something new and exciting! If it's a boy, I might have to throw a fit. Maybe.

HELP

We've go scorpions in our rental. Bran killed one yesterday in our room and poor Brock got stung on his finger tonight. And 2 weeks ago when Bran was at scout camp I killed one in my bathroom. I hate hate hate hate hate!!!!!! these things!!!!! Any practical advice on how to get rid of them or at least to keep them outside? Please help!

I've been tagged again!

I promise no novel this time.

Rules: list 3 joys, 3 fears, 3 goals, 3 current obsessions, and three random facts about yourself. Tag 5 people at the end.

3JOYS: My family (most of the time) Although my children and seriously giving me a

headache right now :P

My Awesome friends

My Ward & calling

3FEARS: Not being able to stay in our Ward. Which I LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!! I do not want to

leave it.

My children getting lost or hurt ( And I don't mean scapping their knee, I mean

seriously, go to the hospital or have some sicko arrested hurt)

No work for Branden= an empty bank account=not being able to stay in our ward

3Goals: Having more Faith

Being more patient with my children

Getting something started with my Sugarjane bracelets

And I'm adding a very important #4 group of paying off credit cards and start our food

storage, and getting money back into our saving account.

3Current Obsessions: Flagstaff, I desperately want to run away to Flagstaff! Although it does

get hecka cold in the winter. Good excuse to buy some cozy Ugg boots

thought!

Monsoon storms, I love them!!! Rain makes me happy.

Sleeping, I've been so tired. It's hard work growing a baby.

3Random Facts: I don't think I have 3 random facts. Let's see what I can come up with.

I desperately need a new bed and we have only one sheetfor our bed set since

we've been married. 10 years in December.

I still have my wisdom teeth and their ruining my efforts of braces but getting

those things removed is expensive.

I really want lasik eye surgury, but I am so scared, plus you need moola for

that.

Well, there it is. I tag, Amber, Mom, Kristy, Jenny and Michelle

Random Update

Ok, so I 've been really bad on the posting pictures thing. Mainly because we haven't done anything fun or particularly exciting, FOR REAL! So here are a few pics of our summer activites.

1st up is our 4th of July

The guys love playing basketball baseball. Here they are in action. Branson is up to bat.

James hitting a good grounder.
My nephew Kevin coming to steal my water from me.
When Branden and I were 1st dating he was 3. Everyone was surprised when he crawled up on my lap and wouldn't leave my side. Later, Branden asked him who he was sitting with, and he said "My girlfriend"
He is such a fun boy soon to be a guy. He's 14 now!
Here is some of the girls and kids watching the boys play. Left to right: Joe, Brock, Tori, Aaron, Kenna, Autumn, Emma, Denise, Izzy, Mariesa, Alyssa and Bridget.
Here is Bran in the outfield with Resbusha the cow.
Clay up to bat. Also, Branden and Criag waithing for their turn and Paul is pitching.

Cary, Emma nd Katlynn waiting with excitiment to see "High School the musical" at Gammage.

Shauna, Me and Denise. It's been a rough few months for Denise. She found out a few months ago that she has a cancer in her leg around her knee area. They know it's Cancer but they are unsure exactly what kind. She's had to go through getting her bone marrow tested which is very painful. She also had a full body scan but there is no word on the results yet. She just started Chemo this week. She's a tough girl and but we are all praying lots and lots for her!

So here is Brock, being MOODY. He's been that way a lot lately. We think it's because he has a lot to say but no way to get it out. Most likely he has a desire to tell us whats what! But, he hasn't even said "Mama" or " Dada" yet. Crazy boy.

On Sunday he decided he wanted to go up onto the stand and see the Bishop and his councilors. I caught him right before he ran up the stairs. Of course as soon as I picked him up, he threw himself back and screamed at the top of his lungs! I couldn't go out the side door that was right by me because it's the stake offices, so I had to carry him to the side main doors, with him screaming and flailing his arms and legs all the way.

So fun!

There is a reason why we call him "Trouble" He is just crazy and full of this rough and tough attitude. Except when he's hungry, then he crys and crys and crys. He wants to eat every hour it seems.

Speaking of eating. In May we had an awesome enrichment night called the "Bread of life" Chef Brad Peterson came and taugh us how to make homemade bread. He also talked with us the importance of being able to know how to make bread, and how it really can bring a family together. He also promised us that if we would cook int he kitchen with our husbands, that our marraiges would be strengthened. Well, Bran and I do cook together, but we've never baked.

So anyways, I am scared of using yeast, ( had a tramatic excperience in the past when attemptin cinnimon rolls.)

But after learning at enrichment night and feeling the truth that was behind what chef Brad said, I was determined to make bread, that was not only edible but really good!

Come to find out, Branden worked with Chef Brad at a place called Stradlings that sold cooking supplies, bread and they also did classes when he was in high school.

And come to think of it, Branden has bragged a few times since I've known him that he could make bread, yet he never proved it. So here was his chance and this is our 1st loaf of bread that we made together. And it was edible and very very YUM-O!!!